I had intended this post to be a reflection of 2009, a post of memory. But i couldn't help but type out how i feel now.
Last night, Angie passed me my Christmas present. Apart from the usual guilt (because i don't ever buy christmas presents) and the ahh-why-are-you-so-nice emotions, i completely forgot about her gift when i reached home.
Last night, Angie passed me my Christmas present. Apart from the usual guilt (because i don't ever buy christmas presents) and the ahh-why-are-you-so-nice emotions, i completely forgot about her gift when i reached home.
This morning i woke up with it staring at me from the table. I took off the wrapping and my heart wanted to leap. It was one of the books i always go to in borders or any book shop and think to myself, ahh, i wish i had this book, but just never found the determination to save up for a sheaf of papers. As you might imagine, i've already started the book and at page 30 i'm already feeling... stirred up emotionally. It really makes me wonder whether at age 18 God has suddenly decided to reveal that life without a purpose is pretty much nothingness. And even as i look at my devotional material, these are the moments i wish i could tell my friends who are prebelievers as evidence that a god has to exist to take care of all of us. But these are experiences that are easily rebutted and i can only say in hope that one day they experience the very same thing.
Thank you Angie, really. The book has blessed me SO much.
There are some that are left outside the house,
There are some that barely made it to the front door,
There are some in the living room,
There are some knocking the bedroom's door,
yet...
there is none in the bedroom.
There are some that barely made it to the front door,
There are some in the living room,
There are some knocking the bedroom's door,
yet...
there is none in the bedroom.
Philippians 1 begins with Paul expressing his delight in even keeping the church at Philippi in his prayers because of their partnership in the gospel from the first day until now
1) To know Him more.
In the bible the definition of eternal life is in John 17:3
3Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.
Therefore are we investing our time/effort/resources in our lives in things of eternal value?
--> the typical thing would be to look at our lives and even question how much time do i devote to God in my life then? What percentage of my day do i invest in my eternal life?
For me my answer is 100%. Not that we continuously read the bible for the whole 24 hours, but most of the 100% actually comes out from the living out of what we learn from His word. Living for His glory is a 100% thing.
By reading His word we inevitably begin to comprehend different aspects and facets of God's character.
In a sense God is like the best friend we have that we share our diaries with. The bible is a book filled with God's thoughts/his actions. Yet at times we find it a drag to even bring ourselves to read His thoughts.
Reading His word inevitably shows us new perspectives and broadens our mindsets. For example, a person who lives without the word would find a high value in money, whereas for a person who has read the verse store your treasures in heaven and not on earth would know that money is not that important.
By reading His word, we inevitably learn what God really wants of us, we learn of His promises for us.
2) Affirmation/comfort/encouragement for ourselves or others.
I know of someone who once challenged himself to write a verse out of memory for his whole cell, and then his leaders cell. Words from men are touching at times comforting, but heaven and earth will fade only His word remains. It is the truth, and at times it really is a way of God using you to speak to others. ]
Verses/passages in the bible can be used to either declare the Lord's victory/triumph in whatever area be it our lives/schools or even nations. THe word of God is a double edged sword. In the same way how a sword is used to block off the enemies attacks, it is our way of attacking the enemy.
The word of God is our anchor that guides our whole life. At times when we are unsure of the future or even our current circumstances, God uses His word to speak to us.
Indeed his word is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our paths. Psalm 119:105
Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path.
The last reason why partnership with the gospel is important is that it is a fantastic reminder that Jesus is really truly with us till the very end.
1) To know Him more.
In the bible the definition of eternal life is in John 17:3
3Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.
Therefore are we investing our time/effort/resources in our lives in things of eternal value?
--> the typical thing would be to look at our lives and even question how much time do i devote to God in my life then? What percentage of my day do i invest in my eternal life?
For me my answer is 100%. Not that we continuously read the bible for the whole 24 hours, but most of the 100% actually comes out from the living out of what we learn from His word. Living for His glory is a 100% thing.
By reading His word we inevitably begin to comprehend different aspects and facets of God's character.
In a sense God is like the best friend we have that we share our diaries with. The bible is a book filled with God's thoughts/his actions. Yet at times we find it a drag to even bring ourselves to read His thoughts.
Reading His word inevitably shows us new perspectives and broadens our mindsets. For example, a person who lives without the word would find a high value in money, whereas for a person who has read the verse store your treasures in heaven and not on earth would know that money is not that important.
By reading His word, we inevitably learn what God really wants of us, we learn of His promises for us.
2) Affirmation/comfort/encouragement for ourselves or others.
I know of someone who once challenged himself to write a verse out of memory for his whole cell, and then his leaders cell. Words from men are touching at times comforting, but heaven and earth will fade only His word remains. It is the truth, and at times it really is a way of God using you to speak to others. ]
Verses/passages in the bible can be used to either declare the Lord's victory/triumph in whatever area be it our lives/schools or even nations. THe word of God is a double edged sword. In the same way how a sword is used to block off the enemies attacks, it is our way of attacking the enemy.
The word of God is our anchor that guides our whole life. At times when we are unsure of the future or even our current circumstances, God uses His word to speak to us.
Indeed his word is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our paths. Psalm 119:105
Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path.
When I feel afraid,
Think I've lost my way,
Still You're there, right beside me.
Nothing will I fear,
As long as You are near.
Please, be near me to the end
I will not forget
Your love for me and yet,
My heart forever is wandering.
Jesus be my guide,
And hold me to Your side,
And I'll love You to the end.
Nothing will I fear,
As long as You are near.
Please be with me 'til the end.
The last reason why partnership with the gospel is important is that it is a fantastic reminder that Jesus is really truly with us till the very end.
On the day my exams end, i find myself in 2 intellectual conversations and writing a birthday letter. haha
I think i'm glad there is at least 1 friend from class that i find worth keeping. Its an improvement from none, so i'm silencing my critics. hahaha. Its really a joy to find someone with similar views about what life is, what love is, what we really live for. The second conversation was tiring but nonetheless worth it, as i think about it, this kind of investing of time is worth so much more than talking to those who are already leaders. Like what someone once told me, there are so many people ready to invest in the guai (nice) intelligent, super responsible people. But what of the people that are really down there in the dumps. Not literally, but emotionally/mentally?
I sit on my pedestal sometimes looking down on the earthlings and say this is wrong, that isn't wise, but forgetting, i am merely mortal too. There are tons of others who can judge, but how many care?
Writing my mission trip goals is extremely humbling. To serve as a servant primarily.
I think i'm glad there is at least 1 friend from class that i find worth keeping. Its an improvement from none, so i'm silencing my critics. hahaha. Its really a joy to find someone with similar views about what life is, what love is, what we really live for. The second conversation was tiring but nonetheless worth it, as i think about it, this kind of investing of time is worth so much more than talking to those who are already leaders. Like what someone once told me, there are so many people ready to invest in the guai (nice) intelligent, super responsible people. But what of the people that are really down there in the dumps. Not literally, but emotionally/mentally?
I sit on my pedestal sometimes looking down on the earthlings and say this is wrong, that isn't wise, but forgetting, i am merely mortal too. There are tons of others who can judge, but how many care?
Writing my mission trip goals is extremely humbling. To serve as a servant primarily.
But tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the Milky Way
To see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated?
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me
While you were looking for yourself out there?
But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way?
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind?
Was it everything you wanted to find?
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there
Did you make it to the Milky Way
To see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated?
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me
While you were looking for yourself out there?
But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way?
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind?
Was it everything you wanted to find?
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there
- Music:drops of jupiter- train
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
- Music:crash and burn- savage garden
On the worst day of cell (xue en please agree), on a day that everything that has been built up since 5 months ago has been tested, its just so... incredible that these are not my burdens anymore. Its amazing that i can just wish for the time i reach home to quickly come so that i can return to the quiet place and just enjoy my book without the expectations, without the emotions, without any need to be any one other than myself.
Its awesome that security in who I am has finally been instilled, and i have overcome. It's mind blowing that a levels is just 1 paper away from ending, it's fantastic that He has helped me pull through every single thing.
You are good,
You are good,
You are good,
Your mercy is forever.
Once i wrote this in faith - believing in something that was not seen. Once i sang it out loud though i could not, i sang it with all i had.
Today I write this with evidence, today I sing it at the top of my lungs knowing that it is truth.
weeks, months have passed,
nothing remains the same, except Him.
Its awesome that security in who I am has finally been instilled, and i have overcome. It's mind blowing that a levels is just 1 paper away from ending, it's fantastic that He has helped me pull through every single thing.
You are good,
You are good,
You are good,
Your mercy is forever.
Once i wrote this in faith - believing in something that was not seen. Once i sang it out loud though i could not, i sang it with all i had.
Today I write this with evidence, today I sing it at the top of my lungs knowing that it is truth.
weeks, months have passed,
nothing remains the same, except Him.
- Music:My help - unknown artist.
I think after everything i did today on the 2nd last day of exams
1) soccer
2) boys brigade study
3) supper with dan
the thing that really ... made me convinced that exams are so close to being far away was a phone call i had with a close friend. Different views and mindsets make us different despite our 99% similar DNA and makes this world colourful, but sometimes its nice to just have someone who has same views on certain topics. Just really happy :) after a day of disappointments.
More to come.
1) soccer
2) boys brigade study
3) supper with dan
the thing that really ... made me convinced that exams are so close to being far away was a phone call i had with a close friend. Different views and mindsets make us different despite our 99% similar DNA and makes this world colourful, but sometimes its nice to just have someone who has same views on certain topics. Just really happy :) after a day of disappointments.
More to come.
- Music:rainbow veins-owl city
I AM FINALLY DONE.
2 chapters ~100 pages. I can't believe i'm done. Thank you Lord.
On another note, during dinner i caught a bit of wizards of waverly place. Omg i miss my sister.
Reading posts by people who matter today (it only took 5 minutes dont scream at me) just somehow brought out a few emotions, that i shall express in faces now.
: / :) :D
2 chapters ~100 pages. I can't believe i'm done. Thank you Lord.
On another note, during dinner i caught a bit of wizards of waverly place. Omg i miss my sister.
Reading posts by people who matter today (it only took 5 minutes dont scream at me) just somehow brought out a few emotions, that i shall express in faces now.
: / :) :D
I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing
Okay the lyrics are a bit : / but i love the music though its in bryan's words "boring".
i'm just feeling a bit beaten by the wind. People pass, people disappoint and so do i. Circumstances aren't very positive, but i'll press forward, and still lift my eyes amidst the storm and say You are good.
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing
Okay the lyrics are a bit : / but i love the music though its in bryan's words "boring".
i'm just feeling a bit beaten by the wind. People pass, people disappoint and so do i. Circumstances aren't very positive, but i'll press forward, and still lift my eyes amidst the storm and say You are good.
- Music:two is better than one
I'm just pleasantly surprised and when i call He does answer.
You are good.
You are good.
You are good, your mercy is forever.
For my help comes from the maker of the heavens,
In every season,
It brings me life,
And everyday i'll learn to say Jesus I want Your way,
Jesus You are my way.
Exhilaration.
Econs.
You are good.
You are good.
You are good, your mercy is forever.
For my help comes from the maker of the heavens,
In every season,
It brings me life,
And everyday i'll learn to say Jesus I want Your way,
Jesus You are my way.
Exhilaration.
Econs.
Its supposed to be my nap time but i can't sleep and i feel like blogging :D
Larger than the moon, my love for you
Worlds collide as heaven pulls us through
The secret of the world is written in the stars
I'm carrying your heart in mine
Times I can not wait for :
Friday 5:30-
next Mon 3:00-
3 Dec 9:15-
How come i always get back ache when i study. even when im not sitting and am lying down. LOL allergic to studying
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"I'm allergic to pain"
-Kenneth koh with wrong choice of words. Its immune. hahahha.
Things i'm looking forward to:
1) dinner on friday
2) monday soccer/bs
3) dinner on 23-26
4) dinner at botak jones
5) supposed to play badminton cell outing LOL. i wonder if anyone remembers
Larger than the moon, my love for you
Worlds collide as heaven pulls us through
The secret of the world is written in the stars
I'm carrying your heart in mine
Times I can not wait for :
Friday 5:30-
next Mon 3:00-
3 Dec 9:15-
How come i always get back ache when i study. even when im not sitting and am lying down. LOL allergic to studying
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"I'm allergic to pain"
-Kenneth koh with wrong choice of words. Its immune. hahahha.
Things i'm looking forward to:
1) dinner on friday
2) monday soccer/bs
3) dinner on 23-26
4) dinner at botak jones
5) supposed to play badminton cell outing LOL. i wonder if anyone remembers
i was really scared thinking of the collection of results, but i thank God i no longer do it for my own glory, but His.
I've tried/done.
For my help comes from the maker of the heavens,
In every season,
It brings me life, and everyday i'll learn to say
Jesus you are the only way.
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I've tried/done.
For my help comes from the maker of the heavens,
In every season,
It brings me life, and everyday i'll learn to say
Jesus you are the only way.
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i've just finished devotions and my breakfast and i sit on my chair not wanting to move, just want to sit here and let time pass. But inorganic chem calls.
Is this a natural feeling
Or is it just me bleeding
All my thoughts and dreams
In hope that you will be with me or
Is this a moment to remember
Or just a cold day in December?
I wonder
If maybe
Maybe I could be
All you ever dreamed,
Katrina has officially the best stash of songs (emo genre) in Mence's words emo songs, have the best lyrics and best music.
But my help comes from the maker of the heavens,
in every season.
It breathes me life and every day, i'll learn to say
Jesus i want your way.
Is this a natural feeling
Or is it just me bleeding
All my thoughts and dreams
In hope that you will be with me or
Is this a moment to remember
Or just a cold day in December?
I wonder
If maybe
Maybe I could be
All you ever dreamed,
Katrina has officially the best stash of songs (emo genre) in Mence's words emo songs, have the best lyrics and best music.
But my help comes from the maker of the heavens,
in every season.
It breathes me life and every day, i'll learn to say
Jesus i want your way.
I just watched finding emo. I mean nemo. Its all rachel chia's fault because i wanted to wait for her to come online to talk to her. heh. Anyway so for dinner i watched finding nemo, i feel so ahhh once again because its such a happy disney ending. darn it.
Math paper 2 tomorrow.
My mum and i were laughing hysterically that in 6 papers i'll be a free man.
Okay so maybe i was the only one laughing
Math paper 2 tomorrow.
My mum and i were laughing hysterically that in 6 papers i'll be a free man.
Okay so maybe i was the only one laughing
i am just almost on the verge of tears as derrick calls and sings.
That the real battle is to finish this fight, whether i win or lose isn't important, so long as He has done it with me through the next few weeks... that is enough. That the biggest trial is to just walk it through with Him amazes me, to just... hold his hand, walk into the exam hall, both this month, the next and come the day my results come out. I will look back to this post on the day i get my results and will remember i said
"my walk with God at this stage, has been the highest peak i've ever felt, so high i'm scared because it is unchartered. That this peak didn't come from a camp/service or sermon, makes me come to realize i'm being placed in a place to grow...and that - walking with God, i know is worth more than the riches of this world, more than As, Bs. "
Derrick prayed in his prayer that He would just show me so so tangibly how proud He was of me. And even as he was doing so, i just felt... so immensely blessed to receive? In the sense that i've had few experiences of people initiating something like that with me, whether to call and just... really in derrick's words, express love. I've always felt that it was me, and honestly am happy doing so. But today He just showed me how proud He was of me, just by a simple phone call, just from words that were so affirming, that i didn't need to craftily fish out, but was given without asking. The greatest joy being that i knew in my heart, the words weren't derricks, but jesus'
I'm not saying that my other friends don't care, i received a note from nat, 2 packages from Abby and xue en, countless emails, smses and even a call from london this morning and i feel SUPER LOVEEdDD, coming to my dinner table on a night i was immensely stressed and just talking to me about phineas and ferb/talking about grapefruits -.- or just talking about how kim possible is totally my generation makes me... heartened to know that i am appreciated :) and i dont need further proof.
The silence isn't so bad,
til i look at my hands and feel sad,
cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly
But drenched in vanilla twilight,
i'll sit at the front porch all night,
waist deep in thought because
when i think of you i don't feel so alone.
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Your kindness is forever,
Your goodness is forever,
Your mercy is forever,
forever.
And today breakthrough came once again, on 3 counts, and on the day i celebrate these victories, i look at my phone and think...
it would be nice.
That the real battle is to finish this fight, whether i win or lose isn't important, so long as He has done it with me through the next few weeks... that is enough. That the biggest trial is to just walk it through with Him amazes me, to just... hold his hand, walk into the exam hall, both this month, the next and come the day my results come out. I will look back to this post on the day i get my results and will remember i said
"my walk with God at this stage, has been the highest peak i've ever felt, so high i'm scared because it is unchartered. That this peak didn't come from a camp/service or sermon, makes me come to realize i'm being placed in a place to grow...and that - walking with God, i know is worth more than the riches of this world, more than As, Bs. "
It doesn't mean i dont work hard anymore (well i technically haven't been working hard),but it means i work harder with Him helping me, and even if i fail, i know He's there.
Derrick prayed in his prayer that He would just show me so so tangibly how proud He was of me. And even as he was doing so, i just felt... so immensely blessed to receive? In the sense that i've had few experiences of people initiating something like that with me, whether to call and just... really in derrick's words, express love. I've always felt that it was me, and honestly am happy doing so. But today He just showed me how proud He was of me, just by a simple phone call, just from words that were so affirming, that i didn't need to craftily fish out, but was given without asking. The greatest joy being that i knew in my heart, the words weren't derricks, but jesus'
I'm not saying that my other friends don't care, i received a note from nat, 2 packages from Abby and xue en, countless emails, smses and even a call from london this morning and i feel SUPER LOVEEdDD, coming to my dinner table on a night i was immensely stressed and just talking to me about phineas and ferb/talking about grapefruits -.- or just talking about how kim possible is totally my generation makes me... heartened to know that i am appreciated :) and i dont need further proof.
The silence isn't so bad,
til i look at my hands and feel sad,
cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly
But drenched in vanilla twilight,
i'll sit at the front porch all night,
waist deep in thought because
when i think of you i don't feel so alone.
----------------------------------------
Your kindness is forever,
Your goodness is forever,
Your mercy is forever,
forever.
And today breakthrough came once again, on 3 counts, and on the day i celebrate these victories, i look at my phone and think...
it would be nice.
- Music:vanilla twilight
The most important person at my wedding will be...
God.
God.
1) the one hour meal breaks these prisons give are awesome.
2) random calls from angie and gloria during the meal times hahahaha.
3) finding out that my shirt's sleeves were too long, and decided to cut it. Gonna wear the sleeves as wristbands to start a trend. (ask me for photos :) )
* though some people have already leaked it to people in london -.-
4) Exchanging witty comments with my mum
"its so ironic mom, i'm like in prison, yet i can't wait to go to cell on friday"
-....................- face from mummy dearest.
5) reading rachel chia/rosanne chia's wall to wall
6) MMS-ing Chris yang/Gloria pang the photos of my new shirt design and life's greatest joy, biology to hear their in respective order, blur and what in the world??? responses :D
7) waking up early to do biology is actually quite fun without the biology in it.
No 3 - 8 rocks the house. no one is allowed to ask what i'm doing online.
Disclaimer : yes, i'm studying, blogging has only took a mere 10 minutes, and no kegan/michelle loh i am not a saint whos mugging my ass off now.
2) random calls from angie and gloria during the meal times hahahaha.
3) finding out that my shirt's sleeves were too long, and decided to cut it. Gonna wear the sleeves as wristbands to start a trend. (ask me for photos :) )
* though some people have already leaked it to people in london -.-
4) Exchanging witty comments with my mum
"its so ironic mom, i'm like in prison, yet i can't wait to go to cell on friday"
-....................- face from mummy dearest.
5) reading rachel chia/rosanne chia's wall to wall
6) MMS-ing Chris yang/Gloria pang the photos of my new shirt design and life's greatest joy, biology to hear their in respective order, blur and what in the world??? responses :D
7) waking up early to do biology is actually quite fun without the biology in it.
No 3 - 8 rocks the house. no one is allowed to ask what i'm doing online.
Disclaimer : yes, i'm studying, blogging has only took a mere 10 minutes, and no kegan/michelle loh i am not a saint whos mugging my ass off now.
- Music:counting on God
:)
Enthalpy change of reaction is the heat change of any specific chemical reaction as defined by the stoichometric, thermochemical equation where the value of heat change is determined by amount of substance in their states.
Hess' Law states that the overall enthalpy change of reaction is equal to the sum of enthalpy changes of individual steps calculated at the same temperature and pressure.
Enthalpy change of formation is the heat change where one mole of substance is formed from its elements in its standard states
Enthalpy change of combustion is the heat evolved where one mole of substance is completely burnt in excess oxygen at standard conditions.
Enthalpy change of atomisation is the heat evolved where one mole of gaseous atoms is formed from its element in standard conditions.
Ionisation Energy is the amount of heat required to remove 1 mol of electrons from its gaseous atoms.
Electron Affinty is the enthalpy change where gaseous atoms gain 1 mol of electrons to form negative ions
Lattice Energy is the heat evolved where one mole of ionic solid is formed from its component gaseous ions
Hydration energy is the heat evolved when one mole of gaseous ions are converted into one mole of aqueous ions in infinite solution
Enthalpy change of solution is the heat change when one mole of solid is dissolved in inifinite dilution in aqueous solution
Enthalpy change of neutralization is the heat evolved when one mole of water is formed from a reaction between an acid and an alkali
Bond dissociation energy is the heat absorbed in breaking a given bond into gaseous molecules/atoms
ENTHALPY CHANGE OF SAMUELATION IS THE HEAT GIVEN OUT BY SAMUELS AT THEIR STANDARD CONDITIONS (25 DEGREES CELCIUS) which overwhelms everyone :D whoohoo.
And i don't know why with you i'd dance,
In the storm in my best dress, fearless :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I just gave up at 10, decided to worship God Just worship Him for who He is, not for grades, not for favour, not for anything. Just... time with me and Him.
I was just... so in His presence, when my mum tapped me on the shoulder and said in a very loud voice, there are neighbours. That just killed off everything, and i feel so !@#$@!$ two days in a row this has happened, gah. :(
But i thank God for every step on this road to moriah. You are faithful, and i believe your word is true. You have never left your children begging. And i come at the throne of mercy and grace, pleading both.
Only you can rescue me. 8/7/6 days isn't. Help..
I was just... so in His presence, when my mum tapped me on the shoulder and said in a very loud voice, there are neighbours. That just killed off everything, and i feel so !@#$@!$ two days in a row this has happened, gah. :(
But i thank God for every step on this road to moriah. You are faithful, and i believe your word is true. You have never left your children begging. And i come at the throne of mercy and grace, pleading both.
Only you can rescue me. 8/7/6 days isn't. Help..
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